The following is from SteenWrestling.com:
The second I heard it, I got a feeling in the pit of my stomach that I will never forget.
So many things went through my mind…how could I end up in this situation? What can I do to fix it? Is it too late to change things? And most of all…how could I live without Ring Of Honor?
I heard the sound that signified my career in ROH was over and my heart sank. Actually, it felt more like it started bleeding.
All I wanted from the beginning of my wrestling career was to make an impact on as many people as I could and work for a company I would be proud to call home. Many promotions helped me achieve but in the past few years, my entire career was consumed by Ring Of Honor. When my son was born I had to make some very tough choices and I had to recude my schedule with wrestling companies that were very close to my heart but I chose to remain with ROH through it all, as difficult as it was, because that’s where I felt I belonged.
I was with ROH for over four years. I saw a lot of people come and go. And I honestly never thought that eventually some of the newer guys would see me go…
But I made decisions over the course of those four years that greatly impacted several people. And a lot of them might never forgive me for those decisions.
I can’t bring myself to list everyone I hurt and every bad choice I made. It would be counter-productive anyway. What I want to do is look to the future and make things right.
I’ve stayed in touch with the ROH product. I’ve read the results from the shows, watched the videowires. I even bought the iPPV’s. And everytime I’d watch, I would see exactly what I expected. The best wrestling in the world put on by the hardest working crew in the business.
But there’s one thing I’d see that I did NOT expect at all.
Steve Corino, standing in the ring, apologizing for his actions of the last year. A humbled Steve Corino, offering to help the up-and-coming talent. A Steve Corino desperate to make up for past mistakes, standing up for what’s right.
I’ll be honest, that blew me away. And what blew me away even more is the way the fans forgave him. They welcomed his new ways and accepted him with open arms. Seeing all this helped me come to a realization…I had to do the same.
I’ve wanted to send this letter for a long time but I never gathered the stenght I needed to do it. Until now…
This past week has seen Steve Corino, my idol, ask for help from me. It has seen ROH officials declare that I am not welcome in New York City on Sunday. I really can’t blame them for that.
But what I can do is ask for a chance to show them who I am now. A chance to come make things right. A chance to help my friend.
Jim, Syd, Ross…I know the last year was very hard for the both of you, with all the changes the company went through. And I know that my erratic behavior certainely didn’t help. I’m well aware of the legal trouble I got the company into a few times and that I am possibly responsible for Cary Silkin’s decision to sell the company. I can’t deny the fact that I was out for myself and that I put myself before the company at all times. However, what you guys can’t deny is that as risky and out of control as I may have been, I still created more memorable moments in 2010 than anyone else. You can’t deny that I poured my heart and soul into my work. You can’t deny that I gave 100% of my mind to ROH…I almost lost my mind in the process.
But these months away have done me some good and seeing Steve, and now Jimmy, act the way they do has been very eye-opening for me. I, too, am a changed man. I’m in better shape, physically and mentally. And above all else, I miss ROH. I miss the people. I miss the fans. I miss the rush.
I’m not asking for a new contract. I’m not asking for the company to commit to having me on the shows. I’m not a fool. All I want is a chance to come in Sunday, stand by my friend and show you that I can be what this company has wanted me to be this whole time. We can see where to go from there after…
One thing is certain. I will be in New York on Sunday.
What remains uncertain is if I’ll be in the building to support Steve, or if I’ll have to support him by simply waiting by his car and hope for the best for him.
I want to be in there though.
Steve wants it…and the fans want it too.
You have the power to let it happen.
See you Sunday…